A childhood friend killed in a car accident the day before Thanksgiving. Repeated hospitalization of my mother, whose immune system is non-existent. Students who push every button (and found some I never knew existed) to avoid having to read or do work. Projects and papers for college classes that I wish were over.
“Christmas is coming…” since my sister says I don’t have the authority to cancel it.
Let’s add in some holiday cheer. Baking Christmas treats. Shopping for gifts and then wrapping them up. Add to that the plans for a Christmas Eve gathering in my home. Don’t forget to practice “O Holy Night” for the program at church. (Who feels like singing? Not me!)
Is it any wonder I have written not one word of fiction in two weeks? Whose muse would even come out under such a barrage of expectations?
I have some people telling me that I’m experiencing the blues. After all, the sky is constantly gray, rain drizzles or pours and there is light for a mere eight hours each day. We all know my SAD (Seasonal Affective Disorder) is making me sad gloomy and out of sorts.
When I add in the loss of my friend and the anxiety over my mother’s health, I guess we could chalk it up to the blues.
More people are depressed during the holiday season, statistics say. That has never made sense to me. This should be a joyous time when we reflect on God’s gift to us and gather with family and friends to shower them with love.
Most people believe Shari is just burnt out. She has been going to school and working full-time for the past two years, with never more than a two-week break. Her job hasn’t been fulfilling or joyful during those two years (one of the primary reasons she returned to college).
If burnout is the true diagnosis, will my two-week break cure it? Beginning December 22, I won’t have to go to work or college class until January 7. Is that enough time to recover my equilibrium and begin 2013 refreshed, recharged and ready to push through until those big dates in June?
What do you think? Have you experienced similar low points? What advice do you have for me so I will make the most of my two-week hiatus from those big responsibilities?